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Come back soon we miss you.

much as I disagree with some of the things you say.. I so applaud the way you say it.. and, with honest conviction. yep.. I too miss thee.



take care, please???

*hugs* Jamie darling.. you are one of an exceptional "few" on here and you are missed. Take care sweetheart..

I am so very thankful for you Jamie, you will not be forgotten as we'll still be here and thinking about you when you return!

Thanks guys! I came back to log in and say hi. Saw these comments. You guys rock. I have been thinking of you too. Sadly, I don't have your email addresses to drop a line and say hi.



The Zoloft....eh.....it's ok. I am having a hard time trying to figure out what a "theraputic dose" is for me. It seems to change on a daily basis and I feel just a difference of a mg. Since I cut a bit off everyday, I am not sure exactly how much I am getting. I am cutting on a 25 mg. pill. I am still shaky from it, and anxious, but don't cry as easily and at Thanksgiving my brother was argumentative and I didn't take it as personally. I thought to myself, "Hmm, I am not taking it as personally. Zoloft." Ha.



Still, I can't stand the shakes and tension it causes inside, and still some anxiety exists. Lexapro worked better for me, but can't take that now. Damn. Hindsight is a bitch.



I am not sure if I should try to go up in dosage or go down or stay where I am at. If I go up I seem to feel more tension and shakes. If I go down, I feel anxious and a bit shaky. Arg. So every night I grapple with, "which way I should go tonight?"



Angelus I didn't get the feeling you disagreed with things we have talked about. =)



It was 1 degree earlier and the wind is really blowing! I am sure it's colder now. I loathe the winter.



Understandably I am not so big on Christmas and Thanksgiving, Mom passing November 14th. But we were grrr about it before she passed. She and I would joke about how we couldn't stand to hear ANOTHER CHRISTMAS SONG! Or the damn bells ringing in front of every store. Or the cold. Or the people. Ha......and it's the same, only she isn't dealing with it anymore. And this year....neither am I. I have done my shopping on Amazon.com this year. It's been wonderful. And I am about done. I tried to look away from Christmas lights but they are too numerous now.



Sidenote: My Dad used to put thousands of lights on our house every year. People came from miles around to see it. We figured sometime we would hear a big thud outside and it would be him falling from the roof or second story. Nope, no falls. He was more of a "get electrocuted" type of guy.



One time, we were over at Mom and Dad's and Dad was doing something with electricity in the other room. All of a sudden there was a "ZZZzzzzzzz" and "Oh!" sound. Danny looked at Mom and said, "Should we do something?" and Mom said, "Nah, he does that all the time.", and continued watching TV. HA! It's a big joke around the house now.



Btw, Nintendo DS is a lifesaver. It sure helps get a person's mind off shit. Take a Xanax, Benedryl piece and tug one's self in bed, wait for the shit to kick in and play Nintendo before sleep. Course, you have to be at a point to where you can be calm.



I often wonder why it is that I was "blessed" with lower amounts of GABA or Serotonin in my body. I recall a channeler's words once when Mom and I went to one: "You are learning the lessons of 3 lives in this one.". Ah, I see. I am gaining so much wisdom.



Harmony struggles with depression. So does Danny. Harmony started taking SAM-E. Will see how that does. Danny dulls his by other means.



So how are you?